Ramblings, Writings


Maybe the person, the “One,” you’re supposed to be with isn’t your best friend or the guy who you’re had a crush on for forever. Maybe you’ll take a chance with them and it’ll fail, but hopefully you’ll still remain friends with that person.

Maybe, just maybe, it’s the guy you never even suspected, the one who came out of no where, the one you had no intentions of dating, the one who you start talking to and everything seems to fit. They understand you, they poke fun at you, and you’re totally comfortable with them.

Maybe that’s who you’re supposed to end up with in the long run. The one who becomes your best friend as you grow together and challenge each other.


Life, Ramblings, Writings

Hello End of the Year Funk

Well, close to the end of another school year. How quickly it goes by and I wish it would just all slow down.

Like tonight. I took a break from studying to go up and visit some friends, since I figured they wouldn’t be doing much, just hanging out. They were, so I spent 2.5 hours up there, watching them play League of Legends, not understanding a word they’re saying, reading my book and just enjoying being with them because I really haven’t seen them much at all this semester. It felt nice.

Nights like these I don’t want to leave. Because I know here, I have people around me that accept I’m quiet and know I’ll sit there and laugh while they play games, but also interact when they aren’t off in LoL land. I know they like me. They’re safe. These are also the friends that I hung out with half of spring semester last year and got really close to, so I had the same problem last year. I’m terrified of moving off campus and loosing this connection I have with them, just because we won’t be living across campus or two floors away from each other. It’s scary. Because I love them to death.

Just thoughts from tonight. Growing up is a pain. But it must be done.

Also I woke up to twitter updates from my friend who is very important to me, so I’ve been worried about him all freaking day. It was nice to see him tonight though. But something definitely felt off. We’ll see how it turns out.

Open Letters

A Letter To You

Dear you,

You are an incredible, awe-inspiring, thoughtful, kind human being. You deserve someone who will love you for all that you are, all that you have been, and all that you will be.

So why is it that I love you, even though I can’t be that person for you right now?

Because you are all of the above and so much more. You make me smile just by being in my presence, even if for a second, you are the one who makes my day better. I don’t know how you do it.

You deserve someone who is just as amazing and unique as you are. Someone who will care for you before themselves, someone who puts you first and will always be there for you. Someone who will laugh with you and all your dumb little jokes. Someone who understands and accepts you and your past, for all that it is, the good and the bad. Sees how it shaped the wonderful person you are today.

Someone who will lay with you and watch dumb, random movies or shows you find that you think both of you would enjoy. Someone who puts up with how much you are on your computer; heck, someone who will sit with you in the same room on their computer at the same time. Someone who will join in when you need a dance party, even at 2 a.m. Someone who will meet you at Steak ‘n Shake at 3 a.m. when life has you down and you just need someone there.

Someone who will smile at you while you play around on the guitar, absentmindedly plucking the strings and coming up with your own melodies and singing nonsense words. Maybe they’ll even join in with their own lyrics. Someone who will sit with you in silence, silence so peaceful you don’t mind having them there. Someone who is always there. Someone who has you on their mind all the time and sends you (what they think are) funny texts, just to try to make you smile throughout the day.

Someone who sticks around when things get rough, doesn’t run away or tries to avoid you. Someone who will be there to hold you when you cry, even if you don’t want them to be, holding you tighter when you start to scream and hit them. Someone who sees through the mask you put on for the rest of the world.

Someone who understands.

Someone who makes you feel comfortable.

Someone who makes you not as scared to face the world.

Someone who is as wonderful as you.

Someone who makes you truly happy.

Someone who is not me (for now).